Events

The past week had been like a roller-coaster ride for me. In the short span of 4 days, I faced 2 major setbacks and came to a realization of how much of a failure I have been.

Lisa, one of my professors in school, once told me that we should always do an assessment of ourselves every few years, so as to gauge where we are and whether we are moving in the right direction. I just did such an assessment, and it is really depressing to realize how little I have grown in the last two years. If negative growth is possible, I am a lesser man than I was 2 years ago.

I have taken many steps to make sure that I don't grow to become the man whom I will dread, but somehow, if I were to look at myself now from two years ago, I would have looked at myself with sympathy and hidden disgust.

Through my immaturity, I have hurt the one whom I care most, and through my negativity, I have influenced my close friends in a negative way.

There are some things which I could have done differently, and some matters which I could have handled better. I wished I can turn back time and do things differently and handled things in a more mature manner, but unfortunately no one can turn back time. Let this be a painful lesson for me, and hope this will be a turning point in my life.

Hope this blog will capture how rotten this feeling is, and that it will remind me and all of us, that we only get to live each day once, and so let's be more conscious of our actions and how it affects people around us. There are over 2 billion people on earth, over 3 million people in Singapore; and life does not revolve around us.

With deep remorse and stronger resolve,
Litao