Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Jobs and Relationships

There are all types of people in this world. Some are looking for a stable job, while others are looking for more dynamic ones. There are people who have small comfort zones, and hence would not like to change jobs often, if at all. And there are others who can't seems to keep at a job.

When it comes to relationships, the same thing applies.

Interestingly, I'm facing a dilemna now. My current job seems to be doing ok, but somehow subconsciously I seem to be fighting it. Mainly it is the pay. But another part is because I am someone who likes to be exposed to different work environment. Hence it is unthinkable to just get into a company and stay there for the rest of my life. To me, this is odd.

When it comes to relationships, I'm on the other side of the spectum. I would much prefer to have just one relationship in my life. No one is made for you. What makes a relationship last is effort put in by both sides. Hence, it doesn't matter how well we are made for each other, for as long as we truly want the relationship to work, and we work together towards it, it will.

As usual, not all things in life go as plan. Maybe I will stay on in this company until I retire. Maybe I will go into a few relationships before finding settling down. Who knows?

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Habits

There used to be a time when I loved to tell my friends that I'm allgeric to books. Sounded cool then. Like when people asked me is it because of the dust, and I would replied that I'm not a bookworm... something along this line. Lame I think, but I guess this is something we do when we are young.

Somewhere along NS, I started to pick up reading. My first book, I can still remember, is "The Power Within", by Chuck Norris. Was learning unarmed combat for my basic MP training, so was motivated to find out more about the arts. Wonderful book. Taught me nothing about martial arts. Instead, it taught me something more. Anyway, it would serve the book injustice to attempt to talk about it here, since I'm about to go to sleep soon.

Along the journey of life, we picked up different lessons. We meet different people, learn different language, experience different things and become a different person. I think I am a pretty slow learner, and there are a lot of things which I have learn from books and life experiences, which I have not truly understand/appreciate. Sometimes, slowly, I have this moment of enlightment, where something I have read suddenly become very clear to me. But sadly, most of the time, it does not, cos I'm s l o w...

Anyway, there is this particular habit which I read before, and now totally appreciate:

"Whenever I feel unhappy, I would write it down on a piece of paper, everything I ever felt. And then, I would take out a lighter, and alight the paper. Whatever problems I have would disappear like the wisps of smoke."
- Source known, somewhere in my desktop, but too lazy to go and switch it on..

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Yup, today is The day...

Yup, today is The day...

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Before my first year anniversary...

Thursday is a significant day for me. It will mark the first year anniversary of my career in this company. Maybe will blog about it next time. Not this time.

Now is the time to talk about the beautiful things in life. And of course, the not-so-beautiful ones as well.

There is this show which I find interesting. Momento. I haven't really finished watching it. Because fell asleep halfway. That was some time last year when xiaolong came over my place and we had a movie marathon.. haha, didn't last thr the second show..

Anyway, this blog is dedicated to the beautiful things that have happened recently. Last week, an old hall friend asked me out for a dinner gathering. It turned out to be the birthday of our friend. I had known them since I was in my first year of university, and they are my very very good friends from Raffles Hall. One of the few good things that came out of staying in there.. Anyway, I was really touched that I was invited to the dinner, especially when we meet up like once a year. This may sounds weird, but among friends whom I consider close to me, I meet up with most of them like less than 3 times a year (with the exception of Jo, whom I meet up like every week... kao, no life...). But regardless of frequency, they are always close to my heart, and that is why they are so dear to me. Though every time I meet up with E and V, I would always suan them; deep down, they are like my sisters and I sincerely wish the best for them.

Met up with an ex-classmate on thursday. We used to study everyday together during our uni early years. Sometimes it feels funny that we are in different companies, coping with our own problems. Sometimes it saddens me to think that maybe we would never be like the past before. We almost never meet up after we started working. Fortunately, we finally meet up again. During our short lunch break, we talked about the uni times; we talked about our jobs now; we talked about our plans for the future; we talked about how our own weddings should ideally be like; and we talked and talked. For the very first time since I started working, I felt that this was the perfect lunch appointment. That was also when I stopped thinking about whether we will continue to keep in touch. It doesn't matter anymore. Now is now. We do not live in the past, nor do we live in futureland. What's matter is we are enjoying the moment.

Over the weekends, I attended a wedding, and two birthday parties. Sometimes I see a little of me in AY, and hence it was really nice attending her parties. In a way, she has managed to live part of my dreams, ie, to connect your friends together. That was a dream I had in my first year, and something which I did not execute fully. Nonetheless, it was good seeing that there are some other people in this world who see your vision and are living your dreams.

Last week was really really good. It's like everyday was well-lived. And yes, some unpleasant things did happen, but they weren't enough to spoil the week. I won't allow it. There are too many good things to celebrate than to care for the ones that does not matter as much. When one door closes, many others open. True, I have done some silly things last week, but isn't that what makes the memory sweeter. Isnt' that what makes you laugh at your own foolish acts when you are old. Everyone makes mistakes. What's important is your attitude to the mistakes. =)

E + A = O